Existential Crisis

Existential Crisis is the visual continuation of the artist’s poem of the same title, written in 2022. The painting and the poem form a single work, expressing a loss of meaning, inner instability, exhaustion, and the painful search for an answer to the question of one’s own existence.

Existential Crisis

A feeling of explosion,
Thunder in a cloudless sky.
And the loss of meaning.
There is nothing left.
Weariness of everything.
To put it mildly.
Why am I here? What for?
An eternal mystery.
What are illusions for?
And what are we chasing?
The ground is shifting beneath my feet,
And the pain is unbearable.

Natavan San
20 September 2022

Translated from the original Russian poem.

Экзистенциальный кризис

Ощущение взрыва,
В ясном небе грома.
И потери смысла.
Нету никакого.
От всего усталость.
Это очень мягко.
Почему, зачем я?
Вечная загадка.
Для чего химеры?
И за чем погони?
Зыбко под ногами
И смертельно больно.

Original poem in Russian by Natavan San, 20 September 2022.